Boot Camp Day 2
Its dinner time and I'm fasting and letting God speak to me. Was supposed to fast for lunch but I forgot about it because we were doing extra practice. Felt quite bad but the guys assured me it was fine if I changed it to dinner. Worship this morning was better. Commandant Joseph was leading and it was quite good.

I was really ministered to at the message and also at the ministry time afterwards. Sani (a full time missionary who doesn't have any income at all, doesn't beg or even ask for money.) spoke on God's compassion and testified what he had to go through at some mission trips. There was this trip where he went to this house which was sort of like a community centre. And he was describing to us how much the place stank. The stench was so great he had to sneak breaths outside the window. And so he was complaining to God how horrible it was and asking God why he was there when God spoke to him, 'Your sin smells worse'.

I think the whole room was hit hard by that line when we realised the totality of what it meant. The stench of sin was so unbearable to God, yet He came down as a man to save us. He laid down His right as God of the universe and became a mere man. What love is greater? Where can you find more compassion? I went up during ministry time and cried out to God. I was confessing to Him. I thought I had given a lot of myself already! But its so small compared to what God did for me. Of course nothing is too small to give. But its wrong when you think that you're good enough and you have the ability to give more yet you're not. And I wept so much when I realised how foolish I'd been. Here I am asking for more and yet I'm still holding back so much from Him. Decided to release my rights to Him as well...

I have found my weak point. My kryptonite, so to speak. Moonfaced girls. There's one here who's cute to the max. But my focus.... is on God. Not in unbelievably sweet looking, cheery, friendly girls! Did I mention she was cute and she looks good in a cheongsam? :p The dances are quite fun now. I've learnt a total of 3 items. I've nailed the sunday school rock item. The other two are quite easy. What I'm worried about is the line dancing item. Have trouble with that. But we'll be working on it tonight. Meaning we'll be sleeping much later.

Its now 1:10 in the morning. Just finished showering after extra dance practice. The line dance really has a lot of steps to remember. The positive comments and encouragements I got from people have been good. I think I 've found a hidden talent in dancing... :)

The Discipleship Training School (DTS) studentsare an inspiration as well as a testimony to God's goodness... I think I might like to join them after Rhema. Thats up to God though. Gotta sleep now. Hafta wake up by 8 am.

::: Word of the Day :::
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